i heck alr. anw, im not telling anyone about this blog.
i will be kinda frustrating all my hatred and stuff here. haha.
hope no one finds this blog out.
ok.
i hate this family.
my friends are like SIGH.
everyone is like so backstabbing.
now i understand.
life cannot be like shows in TV.
haha. i think too much.
like me and C. we had a pact like
if her L1R5 could be less than 30,
i'll have to treat her to something.
but the thing is this CT is so easy!
then i did like shit.
i was sad enough and there was no encouragement or what.
everyone just thinks triple science classes are like angels u know.
i thik these people really have a very wrong perception.
i really wanna do well.
i wanna beat those who look down on me.
MY CLOSE FRIEND.
went with the smarter ones.
of course la.
shes like her ENEMY what.
go with the smart people.
i know im the last in class la.
dont have to make things worse right.
i really cant stand it.
u know whast, even other classes are doing so so so much better than me.
JEANNETTTE, you really suck.
i've got nothing to say.
it seems so impossible to even improve a lot.
sigh.
i think my amition/ hope to be
some famous person who can contribut so much to the society like thomas edision or something.
is totally impossible.
im very dumb la.
i cant stand those people who says that i'll be the top when i go to their class. but im in triple science.
if i were to compare with other classes of course standards will be lower la.
u know what.
i think fifi i the only one will talks words of encouragement la.
but im not sure whether they are to fu yan me.
she says she isn't.
but my M says i cant be too trusting. whatever la.
i hopw i can die earlier, so i can go to anohter place
and forget about all the troubles i have now.
what i feel like doing now is to relax,
go for some dance class,
no school,
but can read up geog or bio stuff for enjoyment.
but i HAVE TO STUDY. for EXAMS.
the government and the school is always contradicting themselves.
they say they give stress so that there will be competition,
so standards will be higher.
but we study for interests is more impt what!
sigh.
whatever la.
whoever wants to charge me. GO AHEAD la.
this world is just so sercretive about everything.
sigh.
if you have to be secretive to suceed,
then whats the point of having friends?
to make yourself seem better, smarter?
or to try to grab as much info as possible.
so you can get a better L1R5 during olevels
as compared to the rest of singapore.
thats is so F***ing FAKE.
please get out of my sight.
now i can clearly see who is supportive of me.
AND WHO IS NOT.
i want to have a clear break with R.
but i cant.
cause this will make things so tense in class.
i want to have great friends.
but some people are just spoiling things.
even if i go to some unknown JC or POLY,
i just wanna go to somewhere where i can show my potential.
thank GOD,
you are there for me (: